Alhamdulillah...dapet beli laptop acer (tipe berapa y?lupa..^^) dapet nyicil jd biar ga kerasa mahalnya.huhuhu.gaji guru gt berapa coba?subhanalloh pas-pasan.pas butuh apapun ada!berkahnya menyalurkan ilmu ke orang lain..
Stuck in a Second Gear
Alhamdulilahirabbil'alamin...
ketika merasa "stuck in a second gear" Alloh WST memberikan kesempatan lain untuk berkarya dan mencoba hal baru. Belajar Psikotes ternyata mengasyikkan ya ;-) emang awalnya sempet desperado kok bisa ada soal semenjengkelkan itu. kirain soal matematika teh yang paling menyeramkan ternyata masih ada lagi. tapi aga ada yang ga bisa kalo mau mempelajari dengan tekun. Akhirnya jadi apal cangkem juga ga apa apa lah yang penting bisa berusaha semaksimal dan seoptimal mungkin dalam mengikuti tes CPNS ini.
Soal-soal seperti TPA, Analogi, Penalaran, Psikotes dll memang sangat bermanfaat bagi suatu lembaga dalam menilai dan menggambarkan seperti apa seorang manusia yang akan atau sedang dipekerjakan di tempat tersebut. Kenapa soalnya belibet dan jelimet seperti itu? ya karena memang manusia pada hakiktnya manusia yang sulit. Bukan kah Alloh pernah berfirman dalam salah satu ayatnya tentang tabiat manusia yang selalu membangkang, tak pernah bersyukur, selalu berkeluh kesah, sering merasa sombong, dan sering merasa selalu benar dengan keyakinan yang salah karena hanya mengikuti hawa nafsunya. Subhanalloh...jenius tuh manusia yang menciptakan alat untuk menilai manusia lainnya.
Pokoknya semangat terus mengejar cita2..!!! (sambil terus berdoa juga tentang cinta ^^)
Memorable Moments in Malang
Never crossed my mind i would present my paper of bachelor degree to such a prominent conference (TEFLIN ; Teaching English as a Foreign Language in Indonesia) in front of honorable prof and all determined teachers.
It started when my supervisor told me that he sent my paper to that program. i wasn't that enthusiastic, since what more bothered me was the horrifying presenting duty!!! frankly speaking,,,presentation (especially in the teacher forum) is not pretty my cup of tea. but then by hook or by crook i had to face it, overcome my reluctance, and i began to bust my chops.
I did the rehearsal first to share my paper in the internal of workplace. i was aghast that nearly everyone didn't get my ideas on my paper. Seemed for me it was useless that i made quite thick photo copies of it. Seemed for me i shared nothing for them. I felt a bit hopeless and clumsy.
Still, the journey must go on, the show must carry on...I left for Malang on 7 December 2009 by train. I was with my caring, attentive, and kindhearted fellow teacher, Ibu Sri Wahyuni. We chit-chatted along the way. We were getting know each other better and closer. I asked a myriad things about working in this institution and she gave me lots of enlightenment what-so-called feedbacks, suggestions and advice.
The following day on 8 Dec 2009, we ultimately arrived in Malang Train Station. Malang is a small but peaceful city. We took a cab to get to the hotel. Wow! the hotel is so idyllic. The snack of Apple and Jack fruit chip perfectly teased us every time we passed by the vendor.
The first day of the conference,,,we had no time for shower.hmmm...what a smelly participant! but at around 3 pm we were allowed to leave the opening ceremony to unpack, take a shower, put on some make-up, and prepared for the next event.
We incredibly had a fantastic time there not because we were able to show off our paper but rather we would be able to meet and mingle with splendid prof, authors, educators, teachers from every region in Indonesia and some from other countries like Aussie, Singapore, Malaysia, U.S.A etc. And on top of that, i met the most important Prof. L.F.Bachman (Bachman, L. F. (1990). Fundamental Considerations in Language Testing. Oxford: Oxford University Press), whose inspiring theory was my theoretical background of my paper! unbelievable... he was so humble and warm. and i didn't miss a chance to take a pic with him..cheese!
On the second day, it came for my presentation. it was after lunch. i was totally speechless and numb. i lost my appetite all of a sudden. then when i stepped into the hall, i found only two persons sitting on the chair. what a relief! i finally made it. it was done, and i had nothing to fear no more...then the following hour it was my colleagues' turn to present. and it ran smoothly! thank goodness...whoa,i almost forgot to tell the surprising moment of this priceless experience was that my paper was selected to be one of the international recommended journals! what a nice surprise,,,beside the fact that there was a cash for a credit to this achievement too.nothing more could i do but being so more thankful...
the last day,,,was the happiest moment during the conference. we went on picnic to apple picking-up right in the apple garden! it was deadly hilarious, fascinating, and tantalizing! it was years ago when i last climbed a tree (a "kersen" tree..) that time i was hanging on the apple tree! and picking some apples. though the apples tasted not real satisfying yummy or whatsoever...a bit disappointing yet we enjoyed the sightseeing, picking, and damn sure climbing.
the following day,it came the day we had to check out the hotel and leave Malang.
thank you TEFLIN, my beloved colleagues, Malang city, apples...for making me realize that taking a part in this education world is splendidly worth living.
An Apple Tree
A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the tree top, ate the aples, took a nap under the shadow...He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him.
Time went by...the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree everyday. Oneday, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad.
"Come and play with me," the tree asked the boy. "I am no longer a kid, I don't play around trees anymore." The boy replied. "I want toys. I need money to buy them." "Sorry, but I don't have money...but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money." The boy was so elated.
He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.
One day, the boy returned and the tree was so excited. "Come and play with me," the tree said. "I don't have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?". "Sorry, but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house." So the boy cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glas to see him happy but the boy never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.
One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree was delighted "Come and play with me!" said the tree. "i am sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?" "Use my truck to construct your boat. You can sail far away and be pleased." So the boy cut the tree truck to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.
Eventually, the boy returned after he left so many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you..." said the tree. "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied. "No more truck for you to climb on" "I'm to old for that now" said the boy. "I really can't give you anything ...the only thing left is my dying roots" said the tree with tears dropping."I don't need much now, just a place to rest, i'm tired after all these years" replied the boy. "Good! Old tree roots is the best place to lean on and rest. Come. Come sit down with me and have a peaceful rest." The boy sat down and the tree was replete with joy and smiled with tears...
This is a story of everyone. The tree is our parents. When we were young.
We loved to play with Mom and Dad. When we grown up, we left them...only came to them when we need something or when we are in predicaments. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could to make you happy. You may think the boy is mean to the tree but that's how most of us treating our parents.
Please...please...love your parents! (Adopted from an old story)
Time went by...the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree everyday. Oneday, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad.
"Come and play with me," the tree asked the boy. "I am no longer a kid, I don't play around trees anymore." The boy replied. "I want toys. I need money to buy them." "Sorry, but I don't have money...but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money." The boy was so elated.
He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.
One day, the boy returned and the tree was so excited. "Come and play with me," the tree said. "I don't have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?". "Sorry, but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house." So the boy cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glas to see him happy but the boy never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.
One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree was delighted "Come and play with me!" said the tree. "i am sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?" "Use my truck to construct your boat. You can sail far away and be pleased." So the boy cut the tree truck to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.
Eventually, the boy returned after he left so many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you..." said the tree. "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied. "No more truck for you to climb on" "I'm to old for that now" said the boy. "I really can't give you anything ...the only thing left is my dying roots" said the tree with tears dropping."I don't need much now, just a place to rest, i'm tired after all these years" replied the boy. "Good! Old tree roots is the best place to lean on and rest. Come. Come sit down with me and have a peaceful rest." The boy sat down and the tree was replete with joy and smiled with tears...
This is a story of everyone. The tree is our parents. When we were young.
We loved to play with Mom and Dad. When we grown up, we left them...only came to them when we need something or when we are in predicaments. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could to make you happy. You may think the boy is mean to the tree but that's how most of us treating our parents.
Please...please...love your parents! (Adopted from an old story)
What does a girl want???
What does a girl want?
She wants a good-looking guy. But what does she need more? She needs a shield from being harmed both physically and mentally.
What does a girl want?
She wants to be teased by sweet poems. But what does she need more? She needs the truths,no lies.
What does a girl want?
She wants a fancy car. But what does she need more? She needs a loyalty.
What does a girl want?
She wants a brilliance. But what does she need more? She needs a modesty.
What does a girl want?
She wants to travel the universe. But what does she need more? She needs a home sweet home with adorable babies and a gentle husband.
What does a girl want?
She wants everything's worth the world. But what does she need more? She needs a happiness by being loved wholeheartedly,an unconditional love.
Manusia Kurang Bersyukur
Kalau punya mimpi,keinginan,harapan,cita-cita,cinta,manusia pasti langsung berdoa.tiap sujud tak pernah lupa dipanjatkan.namun setelah mimpi tersebut terwujud dan ternyata apa yg kita minta menimbulkan masalah baru,kita mengeluh.ugh kenapa hidup selalu seperti habis minum air laut.bikin haus trus.ingin ini,berharap itu,ingin itu,ngebayangin ini.dulu waktu masih SD kepikiran gimana cepet SMP biar bisa belajar Fisika.kan keren!eh udah umur kecapaian itu pelajaran paling dibenci.
Pas SMP adalah masa-masa transisi,mau di kelompok pertemanan seperti apa kita bergaul.akhirnya milih masuk pesantren,dimana ilmu agama ditimba dan bergaul dengan orang-orang soleh pula.hmmm indah sekali masa-masa SMP di dua tempat yang berbeda jadi menambah banyak teman.perkenalan dengan rasa senang terhadap lawan jenis juga terjadi disini.permusuhan antar teman sejenis juga ada.masa-masa dimarahin guru,dijailin teman,kehabisan uang saku,jalan-jalan ke hutan atau ke mall,semua ada.dulu waktu kejadian itu pengen cepat rasanya SMA.
Tapi ternyata SMA malah lebih garing.patah hati terjadi berkali-kali.tapi alhamdulillah prestasi sekolah tidak pernah terganggu.marah rasanya dihianati teman,ditipu laki-laki,menyakiti orang yang sungguh menyayangi kita,salah paham karena ada teman yang comel,harus les bahasa Inggris,harus ujian pesantren,ujian negeri,banyak banget yang harus diurusin.ternyata SMA lebih rumit.
Karena ujiannya numpuk di akhir kelas 3 SMA,sempet kepikiran untuk tidak melanjutkan sekolah ke jenjang S1.cape banget!tapi pas baru seminggu liburan bengong trus di rumah...iiiih kesel ternyata jadi pengangguran.akhirnya ngurus-ngurus SPMB ngambil Pend.B.Ing UPI.
Masa-masa awal kuliah sungguh menyenangkan.kuliah jauh lebih ringan dari pelajaran di SMP & SMA yang harus enam hari belajar.waktu kuliah hanya membutuhkan tiga hari dalam seminggu.tapi jarak yang ditempuh lumayan lama 2 jam naek angkot!huft...tidur di angkot adalah solusi yang paling tepat untuk membunuh cangkel dan jenuh di angkot.
Ketika masuk ke semester berikutnya,,,mulai kerasa susahnya kuliah.presentasi nggak pernah berhenti,tugas bikin artikel mengalir terus,tugas kelompok numpuk sampe bingung temen mana aja yg bareng kelompok di mata kuliah tertentu.
kuliah ternyata lebih jauh melelahkan.kayanya emang mendingan kerja dapet duin bisa jajan pake uang sendiri.
Pas udah kesampaian lulus setelah pengorbanan jiwa dan raga tercapai,waktunya mencari kerja. akhirnya keterima di suatu tempat mengajar yang nyaman.tapi kenyamanan tersebut juga harus dibayar dengan kelelahan yang sangat,hanya 4 jam kerja dalam seminggu ternyata melelahkan..
Jadi kepikiran ingin nikah dan mengurus keluarga aja.betulkah solusi ini yg terbaik sebagai pelampiasan kelelahan kerja?rasanya memang harus banyak belajar dari pengalaman rasa tidak puas dimasa lalu.
Ketidakpuasan terhadap sesuatu sama dengan tidak menyuskuri apa yang telah,sedang,da akan diberikan oleh Nya.
Semoga bisa menjadi hambaNya yang lebih bersyukur lagi...amin.
the past is the past
i was thinking of my past.so many people came in and out of my life.some left footprints some didn't.some forgettable,some remained in heart.i made some mistakes,so did people around me.i didn't have a chance to condone, they dind't either.perhaps,i ever once made they laugh,felt warm,grinned with sincere smile,accompanied by my stories,but why wouldn't they forgive me?was i that not worth apologizing?i couldn't bring my past back and revise all the flaws of mine.
when i felt exhausted with my ghastly memory of my past,then i turned around to the future.but it seemed that my future was still blurred and unreachable.well,i decided to hang on my present.
i see no one coming rescuing me from my strolling down of memory lane...i mere have my self and my belief that one day for sure there'll be another joyful story.undobtedly,there is something i can do about my future,i can draw a wonderful picture right now for my blessful future.yet eventually,i realized there's something i can't repair is my past because it absolutely is far left behind me.nonetheless,i can't fill in my blank mind with something doesn't fit me.
i must find the one that is for me.yes i can look back not bring back because the past is the past.
when i felt exhausted with my ghastly memory of my past,then i turned around to the future.but it seemed that my future was still blurred and unreachable.well,i decided to hang on my present.
i see no one coming rescuing me from my strolling down of memory lane...i mere have my self and my belief that one day for sure there'll be another joyful story.undobtedly,there is something i can do about my future,i can draw a wonderful picture right now for my blessful future.yet eventually,i realized there's something i can't repair is my past because it absolutely is far left behind me.nonetheless,i can't fill in my blank mind with something doesn't fit me.
i must find the one that is for me.yes i can look back not bring back because the past is the past.
Belajar Ikhlas
Ikhlas,,,apa ya itu ikhlas? kalo mengacu pd istilah Quran,al-ikhlas,artinya Memurnikan Nama Alloh Yang Tiada Tuhan selain Nya. berarti ikhlas itu berasal dari dalam hati meyakini suatu hal sesuai fitrahnya.
Banyak yg bilang beriman,tp disuruh solat susah,disuruh pake jilbab entar,disuruh bersedekah nanti,,,pdhl iman harus dibarengi dengan pembuktian amal soleh sesuai yg disyariatkan Islam baru bisa dibilang ikhlas dalam beragama.
ikhlas juga sering kt dengar sehari2.kalo kt berbuat baik pd org lain ktnya g usah minta dibales,itu yg dinamakan ikhlas.
ikhlas sama dengan berbuat baik tanpa keinginan dipuji.
ikhlas sama dengan menerima semua ketentuan Sang Pemilik Jiwa.
ikhlas sama dengan melakukan semua hal (dlm hal ini perbuatan baik) karena mencari Ridho Alloh SWT...
kenapa harus mencari Ridho-Nya?karena hidup yg diberikan-Nya,nafas yg dianugerahkan-Nya,harta yg dilimpahkan-Nya,sehat yg dihadiahkan-Nya,kecakapan dan kecantikan yg dititipkan-Nya,keluarga-kerabar-sahabat-orang2 terkasih yg dikimkan-Nya hanyalah sarana kita meraih cinta Alloh SWT.kenapa kita harus cinta Alloh SWT?nikmat yg tak terhingga yg diberikan Nya semua gratis...kita hanya diminta Alloh untuk menjalani hidup ini dengan ikhlas,dlm arti mengikuti semua keinginan -Nya.demi apa?ya demi kebaikan hidup kita di akhirat kelak...dunia begitu indah,dengan ikhlas kita akan mendapatkan yg jauh lebih indah nanti di surga-Nya.tentu saja jika Alloh Ridho,,,karena itu cintailah hidup,dengan mencintai Alloh beserta Rasul-Nya. wallohu'alam bishawab...
